Why now

Sunday, November 18, 2018
It took everything in me not to call you. Everything in me not to run to you. You didn't know how I wished I could run to you, and every time I didn't, I almost did. And now you have ruined everything. Why did you ruin everything? Why couldn't you understand me? Why could you not hold on? You just had to hold on. A little more. I did not have your luxury, I did not have a living parent, in your absence I had a tough life and hardship to shape. Why did you do what was convenient? Why couldn't you hold on? Why did you do this? Why couldn't you hold on?? I did hold on baby, why did you not hold on?