Why now

It took everything in me not to call you. Everything in me not to run to you. You didn't know how I wished I could run to you, and every time I didn't, I almost did. And now you have ruined everything. Why did you ruin everything? Why couldn't you understand me? Why could you not hold on? You just had to hold on. A little more. I did not have your luxury, I did not have a living parent, in your absence I had a tough life and hardship to shape. Why did you do what was convenient? Why couldn't you hold on? Why did you do this? Why couldn't you hold on?? I did hold on baby, why did you not hold on?

No music

I miss papa I miss mama I miss mama papa together. I miss Christo. All my strings have been twisted and broken, your daughter has no music left in her papa

Me and you and a dog named Boo?

This image is fading my love.. do something.. save it.. only you can.

Q

You are better than treating people the way they treat you.

I just want to go away

I
have become
far
far
far
too talented
at
silent
weeping


-Tyler Knott Gregson

Surgery

I'm going to have a surgery. It will leave scars on my stomach. You couldn't see me before the scars baby. You couldn't see me before the scars. I cried and cried. I feel so tired.

I wish you whispered everything will be alright 

Please help me God...this pain is spreading like a cancer..from heart to physical body..my eyes are so tired but I cant sleep...if I sleep it's the same dream I see that I don't want to see..my hands are shaking..my heart is hurting..it feels sore and out of breath in my body and in my soul..help me God..i tried reaching out God..i wish I could puke out the memories too with the food...but they stay.. and they cripple me God..all my pain that i wasnt allowed to let out has started to cripple me..the years and years and years of lonely unspoken sacrifices have crippled me..robbing me off from the purity of my love has crippled me..abuses hurled that plays on repeat as nightmares every night have crippled me..the pain is pinching god..it's everyday..everyday..on repeat..now it's hurting somewhere here too..i don't know what to do where to go..please help me god..no one else is